January 13, 2013

An Interesting Result...

Ever since this post, I have found myself physically, emotionally and spiritually exhausted.  My Mr. G and I have been talking about so many things now and it is exhausting!  I've been so used to stuffing my emotions down deep inside me for so long and putting myself out there, being transparent about my thoughts and feelings is T.O.U.G.H. work!  We're praying together, planning little day trips here and there together, with hopefully some time away together AND he's trying to get the week of VBS off work to help!    What a blessing!!!

I sat on my bedroom floor today going through books since we removed the book shelf from in there and I sat there crying out to God, being so very thankful for my husband's salvation after praying for him for so many years.  But I also sat there in disbelief at how exhausted I was.  I'm letting go of a lot of the weight from my own shoulders.  After having carried those responsibilities for so long, he's rightly taking the helm and while it is a relief for me, I'm finding that I can sleep every afternoon for a couple of hours.  I had pulled myself out of that routine with my diet and exercising, but the letting go of the hurt is so freeing.  With that freedom comes relaxing and relaxing moves so very naturally to rest and sleep.

Rest assured, I'm not going to become the next female Rumpelstiltskin.   However, I'm glad for the peace, for the rest and most of all for my husband's salvation!  :)  If you don't see me posting for a bit, I'm probably schooling my kids, getting to know the spiritual side of my husband (and reveling in it), or sleeping.


Matthew 11:28-30 " Come to Me all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.  (29)  Take My yoke on you and learn of Me, for I am meek and lowly in heart, and you shall find rest to your souls.  (30)  For My yoke is easy, and My burden is light."

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